..talk about EEWWW!!!..

Countdown to Course Card Distribution OFFICIALLY STARTS TODAY!! .. actually, im getting my Psychology Course Card in a bit (which is quite early if, you ask me) and i'm really fidgeting about the outcome of my grades this term.. BYE BYE UNLIMITED CUTS, baby!! Haha!! It was nice maximizing them with all those movie trips with Trish and Fourth at RobManila.. Im praying for a credible (note: not good but CREDIBLE) grade for ENGLRES. I do hope that monotonous&boring prof has a heart in realizing we all worked our butts off in givin her a research paper that was simply given to us in 2weeks notice or less. 39 pages -- you crazy?!In short, Farewell Dean's List.. *bawls* Oh yeah, blockmates.. please send your condolences to me in the future since i'm taking her for my SPEECOM!!

One thing I hate, however, are the freeloaders getting a spot at the Dean's List. Yeah, that's just too frustrating for me. During the first term -- I was quite disappointed that one of them ended up there, with my help and with no recognition whatsoever. So during the 2nd term, I knew better. Shiftee also feels the same way - but then again, we both realize that these people who take advantage of our so called "help" wouldn't have what it takes to survive for another term or so without relying on the potentials of other people. Face it, ass -- you survive on this earth ALONE!! Good luck nalang next term (and thank God WE WON'T MEET!! WHEE!!)

im so sick and tired of people who blow their egos out of proportion.

Happy Course Card Distribution, everybody!! =p

..when Heaven became Hell..

"LR23 is my Heaven.. and a day without them is blah!"
"I remember falling in love with 37 people at once.."
"I have found at least 37 people who complete my life right now.."

Back in those days, I admitted I was happy with where I was.. I confessed to the whole world that my block, LR23 (a combination of the Literature & Philippine Mass Media students) was the best there ever was!! After all, during the start of the First Term, we were as close as anyone can imagine-- we were one, we were bound. We had those times (and even those unforgettable drinking sessions at The Venue) when we felt as if we were pieces of a puzzle that fell into place.. When Shiftee still wasn't my boyfriend, I used to tell him how much fun I had with my blockmates -- or if not, my block as a whole. And then he goes: "that's just normal.. first term pa lang yan.. Things will eventually change come the Second Term." I laughed and shrugged it off. "That won't happen to my block. We're as close as one can imagine .. I'm betting your ass I'm going to prove you wrong."

But he was right.

Things started to crumble during the latter part of the First Term when we had one of those Unforgettable drinking sessions at the Venue. That was when all the chaos erupted -- which eventually turned my Utopia into an inevitable Dystopia.

People started drinking their asses off because of trivial reasons, fights started to erupt because of nonsensical Love Triangles and I had friends coming to me crying because their emotions got out-of-hand. There were conflicts that erupted all because of building relationships within the four walls of our classrooms. MY GOLLY! These were scenes from nightmares I only thought would exist in the silver-screen. And that was only the beginning of it all.

More tension ensued when my two friends got together -- i have written about them in a past entry. And I just hate it when trash is being talked about my friends. I realize that my guy friend is quite a catch, but the least people can give him is some slack and realize that he's happy where he is right now. The same goes to my girl friend -- i realize how simple and different she is from all the girls in the class, and maybe that's what got her the guy. Face it: make-up and a bitchy attitude just don't get you the guy. DEAL WITH IT!!!

Let me care to discuss the situation me and a former friend are going through right now.. Back when the First Term started, we were close friends and we sat together during different classes and even shared a label we both conjured. If I recall correctly, I helped this friend get to places because, being the friend that I was, it was needed (much help in MATAPRE, to be exact). And now, this friend happens to be in the Dean's List, an effort which this friend claims "was self-accomplished". That's the biggest heap of bullshit I've ever heard.

So now, what do I get from this former friend?! A cold shoulder -- yeah, that's right -- and the notion of disgust wheneverI attempt to even start a conversation with this friend. Apparently, this former friend thinks he/she is too good enough to even talk to me -- all because of what is happening to him/her right now. Yes, I gave you help -- but I never realized you did it just to take advantage of me. So, where are we right now? Well, we barely talk and I admit I can survive a day without talking to this former friend. After realizing what his/her real intentions were, I started to draw myself away because thinking about what this former friend did never ceases to piss me off each and everytime I see him/her.

I feel the animosity everytime I come inside the classroom -- and I hate it. I never realized how people can tend to be so plastic towards you when you have made yourself easily accessible to them. I offered friendship and help, but all I got was a slap in the face. Although I still have friends who are with me right now, just the thought of being exploited gets me all the time. I HATE IT!! Maybe it's my fault, I fell short of accomplishing my duties as a Block President. But one has to realize that it's a painful job having to deal with individuals who just don't give a shit on what's happening in the campus right now -- but only give a shit about getting drunk and partying all the time. Of course, there are some exceptions -- those who are labeled as "KJs" or "Losers" just because we know our priorities. You know who you are.

I admit that I have set a bad example by cutting my INTFILO and SCIMATP classes during the 4th of October.. but I realized that it wasn't all that bad when I got to spend that afternoon with my two friends who meant just as much to me as the whole block once did. At the moment, I can actually count with my two hands the number of people who I consider my friends -- and they don't even reach ten.

If you're from LR23, and you read this -- my apologies to those I have hurt. But I am just giving you a glimpse of reality. Open your eyes and see it.. and hopefully, watch it disintegrate as the months pass. Like I said in my October RantnRave, "it might prove to be an exhilarating watch."

..residency boredom..

my watch reads 8:30 am -- October 4, 2006. Wednesday. another Ho-Hum in the ever-so-giddy life of mine.

since the start of Second Term, I found more time to spend here at the TLS Office (as a requirement for Menagerie regularization, I have to meet a quota of 5hours of residency here in the office every week) and I'm really happy to say that I have familiarized myself with more people compared to the first term. Yep, I have met new friends-- and more people know my name. But still, there's a huge difference to meeting people and actually befriending them..

There's a new list of people I've met since the second term who have stuck to my memory.. There's Ate Cams, Shiftee's friend and a Menage regular who serves as my Wednesday chatter-buddy.. There's Kuya BC, the resident lay-out extraordinaire who plays with his laptop and surfs the net using the lone cable here in the office (unfortunately for him, I beat him to it today.. haha!!) and then there's Kuya Allen, the A&G artist who delights me with little anecdotes from his terrorized high school life.. yep, life's all good here in the office.. and it's fun to meet the different personalites who never cease to brighten up your day no matter how intruiging they can get..

After my September collaborative work with Gela and Marie, I've decided to give Rant n Rave a shot for the October issh.. But so far, my article's disappeared and my draft still hasn't been returned to me for further revisions.. Okay.. I'm scared now.. Hopefully, I'll make it to the presses this time around for my first solo attempt at writing in the Menage..

It's good to feel the aircon once again after 5days of no electricity.. life's good and definitely back on track.. til next time..xx

..firsts for everything..

i went church-hopping today.. and it was a cool experience doing so. Today was Ellinwood's Food Fair, the highlight of a month-long celebration of absolutely no-CYF sessions just to enjoy the company and re-acquaint one another with the different members of the various CYF classes.. Well, CollegeCYF had a total blast this September.. we bombed the Bible Quiz (so what?! we won LAST year and we are delighted to give it to someone else this year.. wohoooo!! as if!! haha!!) and we ushered during last week's Youth Sunday.. I gave my testimony of faith and made my pastor cry.. i didn't know if that was good or bad, but she hugged me tightly afterwards.. it was one emotional Sunday.. and everyone was crying as the Mustard Seed (my fave band, boy!! wohooo!!!) played Casting Crown's "Who Am I?".. it was totally embarrassing crying while the song was being played, especially if you're in plain sight of everyone.. The tears just started flowing.. and I never regretted a single tear that cascaded down my cheeks.. that was one emotional Sunday..

Fast forward to TODAY!! FOOD FAIR!! our Ellinwood equivalent to my long-time Southville Entrepreneurship Day.. We had to come in our college shirts and everyone was still partly rejoicing due to the San Beda feat that took place about 12hours ago.. (but most of the Ellinwood population was comprised of PCU people.. grr!!).. I wore my DLSU jersey and no surprise, Kemuel came in one of his animo shirts.. We were the only LaSallista's there.. so we didn't really blend in with the sea of USTe people who comprised majority of the College population..

Ooooohhhh!! i had camwhoring sessions with my favorite kuya!!! haha!! check US out!!! A FIRST!!


KUYA NOEL!! if you're reading this.. THANK GOD FOR YOU!!! haha!! it's been a while since we last talked but with thanks to YM, i have gotten to know you better.. and since last summer, I have trusted you more and more with my little secrets.. *shhhhhhhhhhhh!!* He's been the best Seniors CYF facilitator and together, we had our share of ups and downs.. through YM, of course.. Luv you, kuya noel!!

What else?! Well.. Shiftee's been busy with FOTOCAM.. and my golly.. he's already attached himself to his SLR camera faster than I have attached myself to any Duncan James poster that's in existence.. haha!! The guy's been soooo stressed but I'm really happy he's having an awesome time with his majors subjects.. I, on the other hand, am finding 2nd term really stressful.. And I realized that KASPIL and INPSYCHO are major snoozefests for me.. mind you, i'm not the only one saying it.. but it's an answer of the majority.

I made my Menagerie debut this September issue!! Im happy my editor printed the article I worked on with my 2fellow writers.. all those cramming sessions and speedy researching and endless conferences via YM (see, it IS effective) have paid off and we're just soooooooo happy to be published. haha!! so, this is how it feels.. sooo giddy, i swear!!!

Im trying my hardest to control my angst.. i've been disturbed by something lately.. well, it's not a new issue.. it's an old one I thought i had finished dealing with ages ago.. but for some reason, it doesn't want to fade.. i dunno.. Friends, pray for me.. I need it.

I watched a replay of the MTV VMA's yesterday and learned Panic! At The Disco's "I Write Sins Not Tragedies" won Video Of the Year.. haha!! Im totally left behind for news like these.. and Ateneo's captured Game 1.. wohooo!!! ANIMO ATENEO!! ONE BIG FIGHT!!!! (im missing my Ateneo friends right now.. and it's times like these when... ohhh.. never mind!!)

when the sun shines once more, that's when i'll be back.. until then..xx

..i HATE 2nd term!!!!..

.. if there was a word that was synonymous to "yuck" but would mean something that's worse than "atrocious", then that's probably the word that could describe my 2nd term.. I really didn't want the first term to end (with the exception of subjects such as TREDONE and POLISCI), but I really, really miss ENGLCOM, MATAPRE and SCIMATC.. not just the subjects, but the profs as well.. Throw in FWDANCE and Mr. Catapang (i don't care how gay he is but i'd rather have him than some other prof who's on steroids) and i'd be in Heaven once again..

I had groggy eyes when I came to school since the first subject to kick off the term was P.E.. we took Volleyball -- I was a bit excited since I'd rather have that compared to Basketball (High School memory flashback: i hit my worst enemy in the face just to shut her up -- yep, she hated me all the more afterwards but i felt rewarded to know i could do that).. Our prof was a reminiscent of my 4th year P.E. teacher, Mr. Callisterio, who was fed with steroids since his thighs and biceps were bigger than an elephant's.. Anyways, we spent the first 30minutes in the lecture room talking about the basics of Volleyball.. and then our prof instructed us to head down to the volleyball court to start with out exercises.. My thighs hurt badly afterwards.. Know why?! BECAUSE STRETCHING WAS NOT PART OF THE WORK-PLAN!! Urgh!! I remember being hit by Lawrence and Pau during our drills because of my minute size.. but thankfully, I was able to walk-out of the Sports Complex in One Piece.. FILKOMU was great -- and probably one of the only subjects I think i'll be enjoying.. Our prof was insane, so we clicked instantly.. KASPIL1 was a different story.. our prof bored the hell out of every one of us in class and I swear to God I would have fallen asleep right then and there if I only hadn't situated myself in the front row..

INTFILO class was interesting.. it was just like CRTHIN last term but the moment the prof walked into the room, he scared me immediately.. Prof. Leoncini reminded me of some Mafia boss because of his accent and his earring.. He's of Italian descent, obviously.. and I guess the rest of the class had the same impression I had of him.. leave it up to everyone's favorite "flagship" to ruin the day by sucking up to him.. All he did was quote Zeno and the prof was immediately impressed.. You want philiosphy? I can give you more than Zeno.. Socrates, Descartes, Bacon.. i'll gladly shove it up your ass, boy!!

ENGLRES was a different story.. Last term, i enjoyed ENGLCOM because Mr. Pulido made it quite easy for us to pass the subject.. but our prof for ENGLRES, Ms. Arroyo, gave us the impression that we'd have to go through hell and back just to pass her subject.. When she spoke, there was no ounce of enthusiasm whatsoever.. All that came out was sarcasm whenever she said "oh goody!" to the class if she liked something we said.. Holy hell!! What is UP with the world right now?! If Chandler Bing had a mom who was of Filipino descent, she's probably be it.. No question about it.

As if ENGLRES was already hell, enter our prof for INPSYCO.. actually, we were all looking forward to be taking Psychology this term just like we were excited for taking POLISCI last term.. But just like what happened last term, our passion for the subject dissolved the moment our prof started talking to us.. Like Olfato, he was a fresh grad who's probably undergoing his Masteral degree and here he is treating us like his Guinea Pigs.. again, I would have gladly fallen asleep in his class but thanks to my "eagerness to learn his subject that I have to sit in the front row just to show that" forced me to keep my eyes open for about an hour or so..

and finally, i just arrived home from CWTS.. yep.. NSTP.. Now this was one subject I was looking forward to since I have been a big fan of doing work outside the house for the welfare of the people in need.. But I didn't know that my block was going to be divided into two batches -- and the moment I entered the room, I was surrounded by people who WERENT from my block and only a few people from my block.. I was lucky that Trish and Fourth were still with me, otherwise I would have gone totally crazy.. URGH!! it was boring as TREDONE and KASPIL1 combined.. seriously!! I should really start writing my last will because I don't see myself surviving this term..

But I do pray that things will change in the near future.. I just don't see myself dying this way.. Oh yeah.. my friendster's updated with pictures.. thanks to the new memory card and boredom during NSTP.. technology DOES help sometimes.. THANK GOD!!

..recent happenings..

yep.. shiftee's been asking me to write in here.. actually, he's been pestering me to... so, for those who are going to be reading this, my apologies.. this is going to be quite long...

i've found a new guilty pleasure in sound-tripping to (illegally) ripped Mp3's from Panic! at the Disco.. my golly!! i haven't been this giddy about them since Green Day released "American Idiot" way back in 2004.. haha!! im inlove with " I Write Sins, Not Tragedies" -- video is soooo kewl and i dunno, but their music is somewhat familiar with the sound of MyChemical Romance.. but Panic! is way better..



the latest song I heard from them is "Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off" .. man!! Im soooo addicted.. it's soooo catchy.. (thanks to Lindsey's Friendster profile for getting me hooked on a new found fave)

Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part

Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.

I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.

Now let's not get selfish

Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

but still.. nothing beats the video for " I Write Sins, Not Tragedies" .. there's a story to it, and that's what makes it cool.. originally, i found the video quite scary since people were dressed in goth-like apparel and wore heavy make-up that made each and every individual in it look like circus runaways.. but still.. the video's awesome..

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when it comes to Music..

New Found Fave: " I Write Sins, Not Tragedies" by Panic! At the Disco

Still hooked on: "WonderWall" by Oasis

Coolest Video Seen: "No Tomorrow" by Orson (i love the flashlight effect.. haha!!)

Mushiest Song Heard: "Ain't No Other Man" by Christina Aguilera

Cheeziest Song Heard but I Still Love it: " She Could Be" by Christian Bautista (it's sweet.. haha!!)

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RANDOM THOUGHTS:

* Are The Killers just one-hit wonders since the only song we got from them was " Mr. Brightside"?

*Where have MyChemical Romance gone? still.. another one-hit wonder since "Ghost of You" wasn't as good as "Helena"..

*WTF is up with the "Bebot" video?!?!?

*is Fergie better with the B.E.P.'s or better off on her own..

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and speaking of her..

"London Bridge" was stuck in my head last Saturday night when our Mexicali branch at SM North Edsa opened.. my golly!! the whole Caronongan clan was there and it was great to have some catching up to do.. i have lots and lots and LOTS of pictures taken (being the camwhore that i am) but my memory card went bonkers and it all of a sudden stopped working on me.. i got pissed.. ALL MY PICTURES WENT POOF.. stupid technology.. now im left with a Nokia 3230 with nothing in it but stupid messages and phone numbers.. THAT'S NOT HOW A CAMERA PHONE WORKS, OKAY?!?!?!

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Calming down and moving on.. Yesterday (Sunday) was the start of Youth Month for Ellinwood CYFers.. we kicked it off with the annual Bible Quiz wherein our knowledge about the Bible was tested by CYFs.. The College CYF, who triumphed last year, was humbled by the YA (Young Adults).. grr!! we'll get you guys next time!! haha!! The Seniors CYF (woohooo!! im proud of my former-CYF!!) placed 2nd.. grr.. but it was all friendly competition..

it was like a reunion of the proud Seniors CYF alumni (from left: Ate Jazel, Kemuel, Boogie, Moi, Adrian & Jean).. Photo was taken by my wonderful daddy Noel.. the Bible quiz had funny moments too.. whenever the question dealt with Bible Math (wherein the operations were to be performed but the given numbers were derived from Bible Stories), no CYF would usually get the correct answer.. yeahboi!! we ALL suck in Math!! Wohooooo!!

Kemuel and I are enjoying our sembreak.. it's our last week of it before school starts next week again (2nd term.. yuck!!).. Meanwhile, Boogie, Adrian & Jean are still in school doing their stuff.. Boogie's from UST.. Adrian's from MaDocs (and because of his stupid school curriculum, he's NOT going to Youth Camp next year..) and Jean's from PUP.. we're all struggling college froshies.. but that's fine.. Also, Ate Chasha -- Kemuel's older sis, is on the DL!! she greeted me with the news.. a 3.4 average.. im happy for her!!

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i got my course cards last August 31.. DL baby!! wohoooo!! haha.. actually, I almost didn't make it because of TREDONE.. but I managed to pull off some last-minute miracles and get myself a credible grade.. my greatest achievement would have to be getting a 3.5 in POLISCI.. just when I thought I wasn't going to be making it on the Dean's List because of how POLISCI was,i got one of them highest grades in the course!! im soooo happy!!

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After CYF, we headed to this place along Macapagal Ave. for lunch and stopped at this new Japanese Restaurant not far from MoA (SM Mall of Asia).. Yasubei has the BEST ebi tempura I have ever tasted in my whole life!! The Maguro and Salmon sashimi is yummy!! And then there's the California Maki that i just simply couldn't get enough of!! I love Japanese restaurants.. and here's my top list of those who have tickled my Japanese fancies:

1.) YASUBEI (japanese food that's good to the tummy)

2.) HAIKU (ooohh.. i LOVE their green iced tea!! bottomless, baby!!)

3.) SAKURA (their crazy maki drive me totally nuts!!)

And since we're on the subject of food, Cafe Bola and Cafe Breton are my new favorites when I hang-out at Greenbelt3.. Cafe Bola has my favorite Kesong Puti and Banana Puso dip with Pandesal Rounds and my never-ending obsession with Adobo Flakes and Kesong Puti in a Rice Bowl.. I've also fallen head over heels in love with Cafe Breton's Galette Bretonne and Adam and Eve Crepe.. Ohh the wonders of food.. haha!! But still.. CIBO WILL REMAIN MY FAVE!!

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Hunny.. on our next ATC date.. let's eat at Cibo.. I can't wait to let you taste their Spinach and Gorgonzola dip with Baguette rounds and their Pasta Veneziana.. simply divine!!

hopefully.. i have entertained you with my nonsensical ramblings.. good morning!!xx

Wishing It wasn't

Course card day... From the get to, you'll know what the drama is gonna be all about. I ain't in the DL anymore. That's official. It never happened that I was on it for 2 consecutive terms. I'm on it, then the next term I won't be then I'll pop right in again. Feels like shit. It's like being unable to prove something to yourself. I know a lot of people won't understand. But passing ain't everything to me. You have to rise above mediocrity once in a while if you're made for it and everytime if you live for it. I feel less of a person whenever I'm mediocre. Life is all about being great. 2.888 from a nice 3.425. Fucking downhill for me right there. Stupid shit.

And this day is something else. I wish I had the power to start it all over again. Ali was being cold toward me (or so I think she was) and so I tried extra hard for her to warm up, hence being totally annoying which she hated. And the rest is rotten history. Bitch day!

Bother Me

I should be sleeping now... I swear I should be. Course card distibution day tomorrow. I should muster all the sanity I have the before that slimy day. Learn how to get a grip of myself and control the ever awry nerves of mine. Warcraft's calling me, begging me to finish the Undead Campaign (yeah, the Lich King and what not). But my mind's focused onto something else right now, something quite sinister. Should I wack this roach or spray it off?

I told you I'm psycho. And a hungry one indeed. Damn appetite of mine. I eat 5 times a day and still not a notch on the weighing scale has been added to me. Freaking metabolism. I'm still a 110 lbs., 50kilo thin man. I look like a freaking highschool student. And I don't know if that's a good thing or not. And a nasty headache. A bitch of such, that is. I gotta go now in to the arms of boredom and the heart of computer games. Oh yeah!