Wishing It wasn't

Course card day... From the get to, you'll know what the drama is gonna be all about. I ain't in the DL anymore. That's official. It never happened that I was on it for 2 consecutive terms. I'm on it, then the next term I won't be then I'll pop right in again. Feels like shit. It's like being unable to prove something to yourself. I know a lot of people won't understand. But passing ain't everything to me. You have to rise above mediocrity once in a while if you're made for it and everytime if you live for it. I feel less of a person whenever I'm mediocre. Life is all about being great. 2.888 from a nice 3.425. Fucking downhill for me right there. Stupid shit.

And this day is something else. I wish I had the power to start it all over again. Ali was being cold toward me (or so I think she was) and so I tried extra hard for her to warm up, hence being totally annoying which she hated. And the rest is rotten history. Bitch day!