..when his tears started flowing..

..just to let you guys know.. i HAVE a heart-- and i don't take heart in scolding people for a living. No. that's not me. For those who know me, im all smiles until someone rains on my parade (*cough cough* LR23!! guess who?!?!) since i don't like it when people try to stomp on my ever-precious and continuously glowing aura.. but once that happens, i assure you that things will never be the same again.. I throw a BF (a bitch fit!! haha!!) and i start throwing words that inflict more pain than daggers to the skin.. yeah, im an inner animal waiting to pounce on innocent victims.. but trust me, i don't like being labeled as a "ticking time bomb".. no way!!

yeah.. we argued yesterday.. but when his eyes started to water, i changed my whole demeanor.. i was no longer the "mad & upset girlfriend" that i was for ten minutes, instead i wanted to comfort him and hold him.. i wanted to wipe his tears away and hold his hand.. i had scared the living hell out of him and i feared his perception of me would change right then and there. I didn't want him to be afraid of me because the thought of him keeping things from me just killed me. i uttered the words i knew he wanted to hear: "hunny.. im sorry."

we made up afterwards and had pictures taken.. just like good times. Unlike before, this time -- we knew how to admit our faults, arrive at a compromise, forgive and move on. Those things were the ones that set our demise when we tried to be in a relationship a few years back. Back then, we were young and proud-- and we felt that admitting our faults would make us less of a person. No. That's not the way things are right now. WE HAVE CHANGED and we're proud to have changed.

Yesterday made me realize how important it was for me to forget the past. Comparing his being to who he was back then is a mortal sin. Apparently, HE has moved on and changed. I was the only one who didn't. Gawsh.. Stupid Ali. haha!!!

We engaged in mushy talk that night and planned for our advance monthsary celebration on Monday. We both can't wait and we're glad to know that we have lasted a whole month.. this is the start of everything and we're both happy that this thing we've got started soooooooo well...xx